Summer Plans

 Hi everyone,

I hope everyone has been doing well!:) I wanted to talk a little bit about my summer plans. A lot will be happening, and I'm both scared and excited at the same time...

First, I will finally be learning how to drive!! I'm excited to achieve that sense of independence in my life :) It'll feel completely different, but I'll also probably be going to places alone more often with that type of freedom. It'll be something to celebrate!

Then, I will be meeting with a counselor for the university I'll be transferring to in the fall in order to plan my schedule together. I'm a bit nervous about that because my other graduate school choice hasn't responded to me yet in terms of class equivalences, and I don't want to sign up for the wrong classes when they won't even count for grad school. But I'm sure I will figure it out somehow.

The hardest part, but also the most exciting part, is that I will be resuming physical therapy. Unfortunately, a few symptoms have remained consistent despite me trying a lot of things and going through a lot of doctors. It will be a very hard chapter of my life, because I'll be going through it without knowing with certainty whether I'll feel better or not. I'll have to commit months of my life for a treatment that will take up a lot of my time, physical energy, and mental energy, without knowing for sure whether I'll feel better at the end. I will cry tears of joy and feel so much mental relief I haven't felt in years if I feel better, but I know I'll also be completely crushed if I don't, because that means I'll have to continue searching for answers. However, I think the biggest theme in my life right now is doing things unsure. We will never know the outcome of any risks we take in life, but I think that trying is so much better than never trying at all. Sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but we have to keep walking forwards no matter what. Resuming physical therapy is also me writing a love letter to my body in a way in that I'll finally be taking care of it again, since school has really been taking up a lot of my time. I'm really excited to resume my PT journey.

To come back to a more positive note, I'll also be dying my hair a different color and refreshing my wardrobe. A lot of my clothes I've had for over a decade and are really starting to deteriorate (or simply not match my age anymore, or at least the way I want to present myself). I'm really excited to go thrifting over the summer and find some pieces that I feel like represent my personality more. This summer will be the summer of me doing so many new things and trying so many things!!

And last but not least of course is spending more time with friends and family. I'm really looking forward to spending much needed time with my friends and family. I'm excited to spend a beach day with my best friend and do some karaoke (it'll be our first time doing karaoke together!!) There's many things to look forward to, despite the fact that I'll be resuming a very difficult chapter of my life this summer :)) There is happiness and hope!!

Take care everyone and I'll see you next time <333

Queenie